Seriously??????

If someone would please explain why I am up at 2:30am I would be forever grateful.  I mean seriously, I love to sleep.  I want to sleep.  I want to BE ASLEEP.  Ever since I had this lovely hysterectomy and receive these lovely hot flashes, my sleep schedule is totally fucked up.  I HATE INSOMNIA and that is exactly what I have.  Yes I am a nurse, but I have no idea what is going on with my own body right now.  It is like a monster has taken over and kidnapped me.  My inner being has been abducted and I am left with this shell of a stranger.
There is only so much Big Brother After Dark I can watch.....there is only so much ID channel I can watch.....there is only so many sheep I can count or Twitter birds, or whatever....chirp chirp chirp
So I sit in my living room and watch George Lopez....and listen to the fish tank....and not sleep......
Someone just tweeted me and said I should play a game of reverse psychology with myself and tell myself I am going to stay up all night.
Honey, I have had my share of all nighters, I don't want any, anymore.  I want to sleep.........
I think I will write my cousin a letter.  Yes, this is what I shall do.  I will be productive while I am wide awake (still wanting to sleep).......These hormone replacement pills are a fucking joke.  S E R I O U S L Y.
Peace Out!
Rach